What are you afraid to ask for?
What do you need to speak up about?
I’ve always been afraid to ask for help. In the last two years or so I’ve left it until breaking point and then asked for help, mainly money wise and it’s been granted. I am so lucky as I could have been up shit creek without a paddle and be wading in mud.
I think I just want someone to take the reins for a while. I don’t seem to be coping very well and going over and over the same thoughts and making the same mistakes. It’s like 2 steps forward 10 back. I’m trying to focus more on me and I feel so guilty about it. I want to be able to do more but at the moment I need to take a step back to get my strength back.
This month I’ve found being in crowds really scary. I was never like this but now I tend to freak out when too many people get too close. Perhaps what I’m trying to say is, I need a little help to get back out of the comfort zone I’ve built for myself and I’m not sure how to do it. So to my family and friends, please be patient with me while I try to find my way back and to be a stronger, fitter, happier me, as at the moment I just want to hide from the world but I can’t as there are still bills to pay and I so desperately want to go on a mini break and explore something different, and to go to Harry Potter studios at some point this year.
Thank you for reading