‘So when people say, “What should I do with my life?” or “What is my life purpose?” what they’re actually asking is: “What can I do with my time that is important?”
“The meaning of life as we perceive it is derived from philosophical and religious contemplation of, and scientific inquiries about existence, social ties, consciousness, and happiness.”
In the early hours of this morning, I lay awake wondering what the hell it’s all about. Why am I here? What’s my purpose? What’s the point of me? It really upset me to be thinking like this as lately I’ve felt like a complete failure.
Yes, I’ve survived a break-up, I’ve lived on my own for over 7 years, I’ve managed the house and bills, sometimes not very well, I’ve made sure I’ve had a job. But other than that what am I supposed to be, or what should I be doing? I’m no ones girlfriend/wife or mother and that I was lead to believe mean’t that you had made in the world.
However there are loads of single people out there living a good life, I just never thought I would be in this situation. But like in the blog yesterday, perhaps the walls I have built has lead to this. I just now need to find out what I want, and that is the million dollar question as I’ve never really thought about me.
On Wednesday it’s the end of January and before you know it, it will be Christmas again. The Tv keeps reminding us to save for Christmas. It’s like November and January don’t really exist, a bit like I how I feel, I don’t fit anywhere therefore I don’t exist.
After thinking about this I didn’t come up with an answer. I have no specific career, I don’t know what I like to do anymore apart from reading when I’m not to exhausted to. I miss running. I wish I had more money to go out and do stuff, but because it’s the beginning of the year I’ve had to be so careful with money, and with the weather being so miserable it’s actually starting to wear me down. I really don’t know what my purpose is. All I keep thinking is I would love a job where I can go in, do it, and come home and enjoy the benefits, but for some reason I keep making mistakes and not learning. Quite frankly I just want to go into hibernation and hope it all fixes itself. Other than that tomorrow is another day and I’ll see what that will bring.
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