To all those people who I seem to be annoying lately because…..
- I haven’t time to meet up
- I’m still single and not in a relationship as most want
- I don’t have kids
- I’m skint
- I may be a bit odd
- I have a terrible memory
- I can get tired quickly on occasions due to developing low blood pressure
- I have a full time job
- that i can talk utter gibberish or worry about the stupidest of things
- I get really nervous about things when i’ve done them for years
That I’m really sorry. The reality is, I am single, more so now by choice as I can’t risk being hurt again, not at this present time.
That yes I have regrets of not being married now and having two children and a lovely house.
That I work full time as I have to pay ALL the bills and keep a roof over my head, therefore some weeks I’m flat broke and yet I still manage to go to book club and get enough money for a drink, but that to me is a necessity where possible.
That after an 8.5 hour shift, i just want to come home to peace and quiet and yes I may surf the web or read a book but that’s my time.
I live on my own and when I do get company I probably do monopolise it because I haven’t had chance to talk to someone but I hope they don’t mind, Some now accept me others use distractions
I am me, I’m starting to learn who that is, one is that I think I’ve had depression for longer than I think and in recent months i’m beginning to realise who I am and what I can and can’t do. One thing seems to be annoying people as they don’t know what is going on and don’t understand how difficult I find things sometimes.
So once again, I’m sorry for being me, sorry for trying to make time for me and not everyone else and I hope you all forgive me.
Thank you for reading.