Monthly Archives: September 2014

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The art of reading the paperback rather than the eBook

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The art of reading the paperback rather than the eBook

I don’t think I really have a right to have an opinion on an e-reader when I’ve only seen them in the shops, but I really don’t see the point of reading a book, whether it’s my favourite one or a new one on a small computer screen. I may sound old fashioned and scared to embrace new technology but I think there’s something magical about holding a paperback/hardback book in your hands, the smell of it the act of turning the page. I say this because eight years ago I got back into reading and loved the connection I got with the characters and getting involved in their story. I remember reading Pride and Prejudice, I bought it for 30p from the charity shop and I got hooked on reading. I love the paper form of a book, whether…

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Happiness is…….

* coffee and cake

mmmmmm orange and cranberry muffin
mmmmmm orange and cranberry muffin

* reading and


* Listening to you favorite cheesy pop song and singing your heart out 😀

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* A full fridge!

full healthy fridge
full healthy fridge

* Watching your favourite tv programme when you feel down


or watching any film with Colin Firth in it ❤


*being with furry friends…

my boy milo
my boy milo

* Being around friends


*watching cartoons


*looking through catalogues


*Having projects on the go




*and of course book club

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Making my own identity

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There are many things in life that shape our identity. These can be ordinary things, such as where we grow up, the education we receive and the careers we choose, or extraordinary events beyond our control, such as having a disability or illness. All of these things may define who we are, but they should not determine what we are capable of.

I have a disability which in Ireland, seems to mean that I am perceived to be an object of care. Living with Cerebral Palsy has meant that over the years, I have had to allow many medical experts into my personal space, patiently enduring their prodding and poking, their testing my muscle tones in their relentless quest to determine my abilities and disabilities.

Never in a million years did these so-called ‘experts’ expect to be lost for words when I announced that I was pregnant in June 2011…

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It feels like Mary Poppins bag today

I’m loving today, I want more days like this. I have been out since 8am, changed tops at Primark, got Lego from smiths as requested by my sister and I got one to for going :D. Finally got jeans!!! changed my rucksack as it had split. And food shopped. I was let on the bus first as I had way too many bags. I then was home by 11am. I have since got three loads of washing on, cleaned the house and sorted a load of stuff from charity. All the stuff from my old house and more. I am now sitting happily sorting the office out and listening to the Frozen soundtrack.

I bumped into someone this morning, and they hadn’t seen me for a while, they said I looked less stressed than the last two years and looking a lot calmer. That might be because of everything I’ve been through, I’m not being called names anymore, I’m appreciated at work, and I do my best to avoid any negativity or negative people. I also seem to have my blood pressure under control after I found out it’s low. Hence why I felt so crappy over the past year or so. I know see signs that I need to drink, or grab a banana or bag of crisps. not too many crisps mind but if I feel a bit off it works a treat. You see apparently you need salt when you have low blood pressure so I’m trying to balance my diet. I’m also try walking a lot more rather than getting public transport. I’m also trying to keep track of things by writing lists, as I have a shocking memory, and  it needs repeating processes for it to actually stick.

So what to do with the rest of the day? Like I said I’m sorting my office out and see what else can be ousted out the house and what work I haven’t finished but promised to do and then just crash out and watch cheesy films. Lets have more days like this please.

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Customer Service…it works both ways you know.

I’ve found recently, I’ve know all along really, I think it’s just I’m starting to feel better about myself and how things are at the moment, that retail is one of the hardest sectors to work in. In recent years due to everyone tightening their belts, employers too, everyone wants more for their money, and damn right to!

However, that seems to bring lots more work, bad attitude, stress, and long hours for little pay in most places. Queue’s need to be kept to a minimum, nobody must wait for a set amount of period. Problem is anywhere you go especially on an afternoon, there’s always less staff on to cope with these queues.

Whatever time of the day it is and a person is left waiting means the poor customer service person (probably only in some cases) Is dreading how the next person is going to react. Yesterday I waited in a queue to talk to and hand over a cheque to make sure it was deposited safely and I was taken out just before I reached the counter, to be shown how to use the machine. It’s the same in supermarkets with these stupid self service things, that are ok until you put a bag of crisps on there then alarm bells go off and green light starts flashing requesting assistance and over stomps the cashier with their magic key. So if this is you, ask why they are stood in the queue, they might be lonely and want some human contact, That mught be the first person they’ve seen all day and you’ve just ruined it. It’s great having all this technology but sometimes the old ways are sometimes the best.

In retail, your told to smile constantly, greet the customer and ask how their day is. 90% of the time it feels like you shouldn’t have bothered. Then there’s the people who explode at you when somethings not right. If you just stayed calm you’d get a fantastic service, a replacement and out of there before you can say purple watermelons. But no, people have to throw a tantrum like a 5 year old and stop listening and it takes longer to sort out, by which point the assistant is fed-up and the rest of the shift is ruined.

Like I said in another post, we’re only human and need to look out for each other. People working in retail provide customers a service by selling them the goods they want but not always need or incase of needs food etc. As customers you are providing the service to allow us to have a job, to pay our bills and to buy the things we need. So please remember if you get bad service or your having a bad day, just stop and think before you react. It’s not easy, I know, but see how much of a difference it makes to the rest of your day.

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Enjoy the moment

This morning I was up at silly o’clock, out walking my friend’s dog before work and then did a 4.5 hour shift and it was the best yet. I don’t know if it’s down to the exercise I got or the fact yesterday was pretty awesome, relaxing and walking with Bez (the dog) and exploring the area.

When I got on the bus I did manage to spill my coffee over me but thankfully by this time it was cool enough not to burn. So if you wonder what the temperature of your coffee is the way it is it’s so it’s drinkable straight away and if you were to spill it you wouldn’t necessary burn yourself, that’s what a certain coffee shop told me last year.

Although this year has turned out quite different then expected something even better has turned up and that’s my new role as pet sitter. I don’t have any, firstly ‘m not allowed pets in my house and secondly it just wouldn’t be fair on them with the varied hours I’ve worked this year. Plus I’ve only managed to start looking after myself properly. I seem to have become very popular and have found loads of activities to do and have a better social life then I did 4/5 years ago. It’s bloody amazing!

Today I took Bez out to explore the nearby woods and it was amazing. I really need to explore Leeds more. There’s so much green area around if you know where to go. And when you’ve been working and indoors all day or for a few hours its just good to take the time out and enjoy the random British weather.

Plus if you have a dog it’s even better, especially when you go into the woods or parks as you can chase things. So far it’s been four cats, a squirrel and what turned out to be a plastic bag and not a bird as I first thought. 😀

so take some time out, borrow an animal or volunteer to dog sit at your local rescue centre if they do that as it’s so much fun.

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‘I have loved you for a thousand years’

Well what a way to end a week. completely exhausted due to work and varied shifts. Not complaining though as it does give me a bit of freedom if I can organise myself better. Gave myself a telling off and went to a friend’s party, which was bloody amazing. And got £15 unpaid redundancy money from 6 years ago. So I’m quite thankful this week

Today I’m at a friend’s house looking after his dog while He’s away and loving the fact there is a big kitchen, a garden and a very light airy living room. I’ve been out with the dog twice and have loved being out in the open space. Who’d have thought there would be so much green area in a large city. I feel like i’m noticing things more.

I’ve also eaten a load of chocolate mini rolls, think the hormones have kicked in today, and about to eat a large pizza. Really need to rethink my diet. Plus there’s loads of food in my freezer that needs eating. It’s just finding the motivation to cook it. Being on your own can sometimes mean not bothering to cook or clean or even iron. I don’t iron. I used to then someone broke it out of me and now I rarely do.

I’ve been able to read today. I have just sat on the sofa, telly on in the background, dog laid down the side of the sofa and its been so good. I’ve been reading a teenagers guide to stress and I realised i am actually doing the things it says in the book to cope and wished I had had this when I was younger.  I could talk to my Mum, but I wish I was able to find someone else to talk to. I used to bottle it up and then it would all come tumbling out. I still do this sometimes. Mostly in the last couple of years, when I’ve felt like something screaming inside wanting to be heard but not sure how to go about it.

If you’ve read my blog before you’ll know I’ve had issues with certain people of the male variety. One being my Dad, I get so angry when i think about how he used to treat me and how others picked up on this and went the same route. I would always been blamed for something or other and I didn’t need to be in the room. I always felt worthless. I always felt the need to be strong to be hidden, to not make a sound to not cause trouble. My sister went through a period of being ill, no fault of her own, but it would, mean emergency trips to hospital and once or twice I was left alone. My dad for ages wouldn’t go with mum to the doctors or hospital when Jane was ill, but this one time she was really bad and he insisted on going and I just shouted, both go I’ll be ok, and when they had gone I sat on the floor with our dog Keegan and cried (miss him so much, he was our first dog.)

I went to a friend’s yesterday after work, She had planned a party and I went to her last one and it was amazing, met some amazing people and it led to me going to Park Run in Hyde Park where i met even more amazing people and got me back into photography.

I had said during the week when feeling terrible after a 7 hour shift that I wasn’t going to make it but then I saw her in town and i thought i must go. I will only end up sitting on my own at home and what’s the point of that. I’m so glad I did as I went straight from work and got to spend some time with her. We had a good catch up before everyone came and she said, like my Mum that I need to see in myself what others do, how much I can do, what I do for others and what a fab person I am. So that’s my mission. This is my set of goals for next 5 years:

*Spend as much time with friends and family

* Own a car

*Own a house, it must be a lighter house and have a small garden to sit in at the end of a long day

*move house by june next year (rented)

* Run. Possibly do another York 10k

* Spread the word about book club

I know most are material things but I need somewhere that I can chill in on my day off. I really don’t fancy going back into town when I’ve had a busy working week. I just want to lounge about and read books, or clean the house or sort out stuff for book club or learn something new.

So that’s me. I’m starting to feel comfortable in my own skin. What I need to do is to find time for me half an hour a day to reflect on me and who I am and the positive things that are going on right now and what other things that need sorting and when. And to remember to continue my techniques when I get stressed to concentrate on my breathing and if chance to clean, as one day I will run again and that will sort all that out.

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Remember next time your shopping or ordering food…..

…..that the person behind the till,bar,counter is a person not a robot and just because you haven’t woke up or are having a crappy day or are queuing and nobody isn’t taking any notice of how long you have been there, just remember the person waiting to serve you may be having a crappy day, may not feel well, has been standing on their feet for several hours, no food or drink and constant streams of orders or customers coming through the till and trying not to make a mistake. And there are the ones who will give bad service but for the rest, its their full time job and what they spend most their time doing.

And next time you see the word ‘trainee’ spare a thought for them, they already feel like they stand out like a sore thumb, already nervous to try to remember the 90 steps to a recipe they’ve had to learn. What makes it worse is all the background noise and then when you give them your special recipe it makes it twice as hard. I fully understand everyone is different and the society we now live in has no patience what so ever, but please next time you’re in a queue or ordering coffee just think about the person behind the bar.

Today I wanted to not complain at all. It was an 11 hour shift and wanted to get through it as easy as possibly. I did all the crappy jobs just to keep myself moving I also give myself a bit of variety.  I did well until the afternoon  around 4pm when it started to drag and as I was getting tired was getting slower and making mistakes or having to repeat orders which I didn’t understand like a half-shot-skinny-wet-latte apparently that’s simple and then there’s the ones looking at their watches as they wait but there’s only one machine and steaming milk isn’t as easy as it looks.

Anyway I am proud of today as I stayed quite calm and managed to get through queues of people and create almighty mess with coffee beans, whipped cream and whatever I felt like spilling across the counter. Its like what they say with driving, take a break. Look after yourself better, so that when your colleague goes on a cigarette break 10 minutes before they leave, make sure you do as well, and if you don’t smoke have a cake break, makes all the difference,

All I need now is a million pound lottery win to get a house and car and then spend time plotting to find my very own Mr Darcy who can wash up and cook while I go to book club. 😀

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