Monthly Archives: July 2014

Everything is awesome!

Things are just starting to fall into place. I feel like I need to pinch myself. Part of me wants to shout how good things are for from the rooftops but then I feel like I might jinx it. Last week I unexpectedly ended up at a friends and then in between appointments I ended up staying most the week, I met her new dogs, called Misty and Maisy and was so pleased to be able to help my friends out by looking after them while they were at work. They got them from the Dogstrust and they’re the most cutest things ever, they’re terriers and each have their own characters. It helped me to, I got to sit still for a while, I worked on my laptop while they recovered from an operation. it was so sweet when they wanted cuddles. I also got to enjoy the sunshine by sitting in my friends garden and by the weekend taking the girls out for a walk. cutest thing ever! I thought our Milo was cute walking and how he plays sherlock, and these did the same, but kept bouncing off each other as they were on a double lead.

I have missed being able to read, I managed to pick up the secret diary of Adrian Mole and it’s quite funny. I’ve never been a quick reader and at the moment feel slower than ever. I also feel guilty sitting still for short periods of time, I think that’s why I was grateful to be looking after the girls. I had time to read. Today I did some housework. It’s amazing how much mess one person can make, especially when things get hectic and don’t put things away. I actually decided to rearrange the furniture. I’ve moved a book-case from upstairs which wasn’t being used to downstairs then moved the drawers to its place in the bedroom. I couldn’t shift the bed so that stays where it is.

Yesterday there was some interesting sights in Leeds. Not only with the state of fashion due to the sun being out, but I had just finished food shopping, you should never go when hungry although the fridge now looks healthy. Whilst waiting at the bus stop I heard this noise, it turned out to be a group of men on a parade. They had a megaphone, and were shouting things. It turns out they were protesting against events in Gaza. A lady got on the next stop and was laughing because she had seen them pass and said she thought rappers were coming down the street as they weren’t being clear what they were shouting.  I give them credit for voicing their opinions but I felt they hadn’t quite thought it through.

Today has been full of activity and having Murder She Wrote on in the background thanks to the dvd boxset my sister gave me, has kept me pottering around the house. I’m sure I’m creating mess in the house to just clean it up again. Must work on this and get organised.

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LBC Outlaws – Write up the First! – The Hound of the Baskervilles


LBC Outlaws
The books that make you go ooooooooo!!!!

Venue: Outlaws Yacht Club

Date:  Inagural meeting on 28th of May, thereafter the last Thursday of each month

Time:  6pm for a 6:30 start



* * * SPOILERS * * *
Our first meeting of #LBCOutlaws involved a brief introduction to the book club and what it was about and involved lots of tea and cake.
Information about the author

Sir Arthur Conan Doyle was born in Edinburgh on May 22, 1859, one of seven children who survived to adulthood. Rejecting his family’s strict Catholicism and, cut off from their patronage, he decided to set up his own practice in Southsea in 1882.After the death of his first wife, Louise Hawkins, he went on to marry Jean Leckie in 1907 and they had two sons and a daughter. He died in…

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Happy 2nd blogging birthday to me!!!!

Whoop! two years ago I started this blog, some people haven’t liked what I’ve wrote, some people thought it was about them and it wasn’t (big egos) It’s helped me through good and bad times and I’ve learn’t so much from me writing and reading other blogs to. I just the little community it creates.

2 years!

Things are finally turning around for me. I was beginning to think my 30s were the worst years of my life but its just been a very rocky ride. I don’t know if I’m a better person from it or not but its been interesting.

There’s a thing going round FB that you type into google your name and ‘is a’ and something comes up, I must be doing it wrong as I got my name meaning. see below.

a girl who is awesome in all her ways. she is fly and skilled beyond belief. everyone else is jealous of her good looks.
Dang, look at Helen. Lookin` fly as always.Man, I wish I could be Helen.
A superhuman hero of sorts whose power will increase to include that of time travel after building herself a TARDIS. She just needs to find where she left the plans…oooo shiny…LALALALA!
Doctor Who? Doctor Helen
I have been doing loads of job searching in the last few weeks and had interviews good and bad, learning to ‘sell myself’ that sounds so wrong, has been quite interesting. Who is Helen, what can you offer. I think it finally worked.
In between that I have had a visit up north to see my sister and she gave me 1-3 boxset series of one of my favourite programmes, Murder She Wrote. Always loved it, watched it on my days off from college years ago and recently got back into it thanks to ITV3 at 7pm. Jessica is such an amazing character. since then I had to buy series 8 because one episode is recorded in the house used in the film Psycho by Alfred Hitchcock, or the psycho house as its known.  see more here
While looking for this series I also saw the game for £1 and bought that to. So along with other homework, I will be looking at having a go at finding stuff like Jessica.
This weekend is  a friend’s birthday and I’ve been staying at hers on and off this week looking after her new dogs, initially I was mean’t to be up north with my sister but had a few job interviews and then ended up staying at my friends and meeting these cute little girls. See the pics above, Misty is the black one and I lost her for 10 mins in the house as she was hiding under the desk. Maisy is the older one and loves cuddles. They both have lovely characters even if they have felt a bit poorly lately.
This is me!
This is me!
So a big thank you to everyone who has read my blog and hope you keep reading it.
Thank you for reading.

fear of washing up



One of the things about living on my own that I’ve hated  doing is washing up, oh and cleaning the toilet but mostly washing up, I let it build up and up and then have to tackle a mountain. Today, feeling sorry for myself, I thought, I need to wash up before I go to bed, But I want a bath and I can’t take it upstairs with me, so decided while the tv continued to chunter to itself I got up and did the dishes and wiped the surfaces down. It only took 10 mins and I felt so much better for it, I just don’t understand why I keep leaving it. So from now on I’m going to try keep on top of it.

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Its Friday and I find myself job hunting, again

I’m feeling rather sorry for my self at the moment. I’m finding it harder to get out of bed at the moment. I really just want to hide under the covers and hope the world will just go away. I have been applying constantly for jobs, I have adapted application forms the best  I can, but either my education which is full of arty stuff goes against me or the amount of jobs I’ve done which with all that experience doesn’t count for toffee.

Today at some point I need to go out and do what the job centre call ‘speculative’ job hunting. I have also been sat watching Charmed and Murder She Wrote while trawling through websites. I have applied for a dozen coffee shop places (probably same one I’ve already applied for) and some supermarket ones.

I had an interview for a call centre the other day and apparently flexible is not what I thought it meant. I’m learning the hard way like someone advised it’s what you can do not what you can’t do as regards talents and non working hours. I just hope I don’t have to give up bookclub

On the same note, I also hate the fact that the computer is deciding my fate. Lately I keep getting this back:

‘Unfortunately, you did not meet the required benchmark at the initial screening stage for this role. We therefore regret to inform you that we won’t be taking your application any further.’


All I seem to hear is ‘computer says no’. So I’m going to have to take a different tactic and try focusing on activities rather than the education and work or a mixture of all three. I’ve perhaps not got a personal statement that has the wow factor.

So while I work through this here’s some food for thought:

‘No matter how far you have gone on the wrong road, turn back.”

It doesn’t matter how much time, money or energy you’ve already invested in the path you’ve chosen – it’s never too late to change direction.

Feeling stuck or unhappy? You can change that! Too many people believe themselves to be too ‘far gone’, too ‘old’ or even too ‘successful’ to choose a different, more joyful path for themselves. But this is never the case.

Each day and each moment is a clean slate. Forget what’s come before and don’t waste time worrying about what’s to come – it’s the HERE and NOW that’s important. 

So ask yourself – if everything leading to this moment was wiped clean, would I still want to be where I am right now? If the answer is no, you know what you have to do.

Be brave; take each day as a fresh start and do what needs to be done to make you happy NOW.’

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Tour de House: Stage 2

Its nearly done, been up since 6am this morning two episodes of charmed and one of diagnosis murder. Found a old work mag that had a letter of appraisal about me in it. Sorted through loads of stuff and got rid of 6 bags of rubbish. hoovered all the dust, yuk. Have found that I had stuff that I can’t remember bringing into the house. A bit worrying that. Things I’ve found that I thought why did I get that, to wow there it is!! I have lost the cable to my phone charger, but I always lose things when I tidy. It’ll be scooped up somewhere.

I just have the ‘office’ and the kitchen to sort through. The cover on the sofa has had a wash and come up bright white. oops. It’s amazing how  you can fill a space up so quickly and wonder how it happened some time later. It’s just amazing.

So if you have any tips on clearing the clutter let me know.

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Tour de House -the soundtrack


In no particular order the song list randomly chosen by Spotify

1. Total Eclipse of the heart Bonnie Tyler

2. Everything changes but you -Take That

3. Rule The World – Take That

4. Let it go – Idina Menzel

5. What is love – Haddaway (geordie word?)

6. It’s like that – Run DMC

7. Relight my fire -Take That

8. Do you want to build a snowman? -Agatha Lee Mon

9. Love shine a light – Katrina and the waves

10. Here I go again – White snake


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Tour de House: Stage one!

As the Tour de France comes to Leeds tomorrow I decide to after a long week of job hunting and failed interviews to start again on the project I keep putting off….. Clearing out the house of junk kept over the years.

My Sister rang me and said, ‘Should there be anything to be worried about because you’re cleaning or are you ok?’ Me cleaning to this extent means there’s something on my mind I can’t sort but I’m getting to the point where I’m repeating the same pattern. digging my heals in and hoping something will turn up or it will disappear. Like before it’s not working.

When I moved in here I think it was a form of escape, to be able to hide from everyone and hope the earth would swallow me whole. It didn’t, it just set me on a different path, with lots of stumbling blocks and quite clearly lots of lessons to learn which I’m failing miserably at. When my Sister rand one thing that stuck a chord was, ‘Don’t get rid of stuff you’ll regret later.’  I’m not, or trying not to. instead I’m sorting through stuff and stuff that is going is moving from the top room to the cellar/basement then in a few days I’ll arrange for a pick up from a charity shop and check it again. Last time I did this they got £20 extra via giftaid, it involved a few bits of furniture.

I have taken down the set of shelves, took over an hour as I didn’t have the right tools. I used a spanner instead but it got the job done. That with the other stuff now need getting rid of, but not sure how.

So best get back to it and go hoover up the mess where the shelves were

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Sorting through the mess

When I was in  Waterstones waiting for book club to start I was wandering in the art section and saw this book ‘How to steal like an artist’. It was amazing , it mentioned about having an analogue and digital table. I thought that was a fab idea. So I have used my table to be for paperwork and moved my laptop back to the small folding table next to the sofa, so far its working. Here are some bits from the book.


‘I have two desks in my office — one’s “analog” and one’s “digital.” The analog desk has nothing but markers, pens, pencils, paper, and newspaper. Nothing electronic is allowed on the desk — this is how I keep myself off Twitter, etc. This is where most of my work is born. The digital desk has my laptop, my monitor, my scanner, my Wacom tablet, and a MIDI keyboard controller for if I want to record any music. (Like a lot of writers, I’m a wannabe musician.) This is where I edit, publish, etc.’