Monthly Archives: September 2013

Helen and Jane’s adventure to Newcastle




Adventures in Geordie Land

A few weeks back I was oop north and visiting my Mum’s. (I may have already blogged about it but hey ho) There was an exhibition on about Enid Blyton at a Children’s book centre in Newcastle and I thought this would help with my book challenge for book club, and it did. However we nearly didn’t make it. I had read the map wrong and we ended up at the science museum and I was already to give up and go in there but my amazing little Sister said ‘no, we came here to find it and we going to. It’s for bookclub and you’ll regret it if you don’t.’

Granted I am bad at directions and we ended up in Gateshead, because if we had turned right and followed the top road we would have got straight to the museum/centre and had more time but to be honest we had such a fun time on the scenic route, I think it was all part of the day.

When I went up home (yes I have two, it confuses people) I had it all planned out. Then Jane found out that she didn’t have to go out and we decided on the spur of the moment to go to Newcastle for this exhibition I wanted to see.

‘If they had gone right out of the station, they would have gone straight to the museum!’

We eventually found it after an hour or so wandering about and saw the bus driver who dropped us off at Durham driving past. spooky!!  I was so pleased it was a nice day to as if it had been raining we would have been drowned rats by the time we got there and that wouldn’t have been pretty.

We finally came across our destination after a long trek and few giggles and found it hidden away, what a gem to be tucked away. When need more places like these to get kids reading. It’s a fantastic little place.  We went up to the exhibition and I got so excited at seeing the slide I ran past most of the exhibition and squealed with delight. All I heard from my sister was ‘oh dear’ then ‘Helen’ and pointed to the Noddy car in the corner. I ran over and sat in it. The big kid emerged and I was so excited about the display and the large car and oh so much more.

The exhibition covered most of Enid Blyton’s famous works and I don;t think I took in as much information as I should have but it did get me back into reading them again. I even managed to trick Jane into going round again by pretending to go out and then visited Noddy’s car again where a woman from the centre told us about the hats and scarf and how a woman had made them especially for the exhibition.

I learnt so much when I was there, not so much about Enid Blyton but to try to forget about things and enjoy the moment. It also got me want to be creative again and when I got home I started to draw again.

We also visited the rest of the centre and found the exhibit on how to train your dragon and there was a Viking ship!!! I love dragons they are so much better than dinosaurs. I am now on the look out for the books.

This is a hidden gem of Newcastle and whetehr or not you have kids you should go see it.

One last note, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to thank my sister enough for making sure I got there and also looking after the ‘big kid and joining in dressing up, even though they were mean’t for the kids they still fitted me!!!. I had such an amazing time. Can’t wait for the next adventure!!! Next time we’ll take jam sandwiches and pop.

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In need of a hero

Sometimes I really feel like I need to be in a relationship, mainly just to take the pressure off money wise, to be able to come home and share my day with them, to spend lazy days together, go out dancing and drinking and just be normal.

But I need to find them first and to do that is to let people in and to open my heart again. That’s if I can get over myself and learn to trust again and break the box I put my heart into.

And when I do, and if, big if things go wrong I’ll be more prepared.

If I ever do find my hero, this belongs to him….

…..along with my heart of course 😀

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‘If you believe they put a man on the moon’

Yesterday I was in Manchester. I was sat in Starbucks mid afternoon after wandering around in circles looking for something to eat and decided it was time for a coffee. I decided on a hazelnut latte and grabbed a comfy seat in the corner and decided to do some writing about the day and this song came on by REM hence the title.

I’ve had a few stressful weeks and I can’t explain why but it’s led to me being full of cold or as my sister kindly just put it ‘man flu’ Only problem with me is once it’s on my chest I’ve had it and it’s a buggar to shift. However I’ve found that if you drink hot lemon and Munuka honey, have chicken soup, obviously I had tinned soup as not the time to do proper stuff but it can do wonders. The problems with colds that if your sinuses get blocked up and you end up with problems with your ears it can make you feel 10 times worse.

So many things have changed, I’ve tried positive mental attitude, been given a lot of pep talks lately and it’s been much appreciated. I have been here there and everywhere. Book clubs are coming along nicely, still need to do better preparation. I’ve been out drinking with friends a couple of times and got a snog!!! I’m still fanciable. Well it helps to show I have legs and put a bit of make up on and wham bam thank you mam I got a snog!

Friedrich: But I have nothing to give you. My hands are empty.

[entwines her hands with his]

Jo: Not empty now.

Friedrich Bhaer: You must write from life, from the depths of your soul!

-Little Women the film

Nothing has happened since but I felt like a teenager. In recent months I have felt like a teenager, doing stuff I never dreamed of. The blog is one another is the programme I do for radio and going to places on my own, like sitting in a pub reading  or going there to discuss a book in amongst strangers who some have  come to know and love. You see when growing up my Dad was one of the negative influences on my life and for lots of other reasons I became what he called, an ‘independent stubborn buggar’ I always helped Mum out as much as I could and felt like to ask for help myself or to bother people was wrong so I just got on with things. At school because I didn’t learn as quick as others or because I couldn’t grasp the subject things didn’t go to well. I was told I was to shy and wouldn’t go far. I wanted my sister’s abilities, intelligence and be as brainy as her, but I wasn’t, I was led to believe I wasn’t good enough. Although I hate to admit it I think my Dad and I’s temperaments are the same. and this has affected other parts of my life which made me take a big swinging ball to everything and left the people I love confused and some to work away. Since school and they told I wasn’t good enough I fought to get the better grades and then I think I gave up. I struggled through college and just followed a path that people said I could take rather than fighting my corner again.

I keep getting told ‘we want the ‘old Helen’ back well I could say the same for them. But I don’t know who I am anymore. All I know is that since I’ve decided not to care about certain things and just get on with things and not put 110% into everything things have got better. I’ve been trying to put more effort into book clubs and meeting friends and I think last week I was doing something every night bar Monday and I think that along with other things led to the man flu. So I’m trying to rest up today. Yesterday I just wanted to get out of Leeds and have some me time. Although I kept sneezing and my nose wouldn’t stop running. I had a fab time. Granted it took me most the day to switch off from certain things but in the end it was worth it. I also recommend the MOSI museum. it’s amazing an to go on the steam train. I also think Manchester is like how Newcastle used to be when I was young, but it made me realise how much Leeds means to me as a home. The visit to the museum made me realise we take so much for granted these days. The fact we have constant access to clothes and public amenities even if they are miles apart in shopping centres and there’s always a massive queue for the ladies.

We take friendship for granted we take families for granted and we take ourselves for granted. Enemies are what we make. whether it’s enemies against the country, against a cause, or against our selves but our worst enemies are ourselves. That little voice in our heads that keeps us going everyday is the enemy who can raise us up or completely destroy us and it’s a constant battle. Nothing can stay the same, that’s a given but while it is like it is we need to cherish it.  People will walk away, People die and we don’t tell them how much we loved them and how much we miss them when they’re not around. People change for better or worse.

So what have I learn’t in these last three years of being single and living on my own? Well a lot really even if I keep making the same mistakes again and again. I’ve learn’t shame is an awful feeling to have. That I am an intelligent person, and that intelligence can be measured in many different ways. We all have our own strengths and weaknesses and once we accept them we can be the best we can even if it doesn’t suit others. We don;t always have to conform, the people who want you to lack confidence in themselves and are following a path they are not happy with. I am not happy with how my life has turned out but I accept. I am creeping possibly rollercoastering head first into my 34th birthday and I am scared. But I now know what I can achieve and what has been achieved, I think how the hell did I do that. I am proud of me even if I don’t like me and can’t wait to try something new. Manchester was a big thing for me yesterday. I just wanted to get away from everything.  When that happens it makes you realise that even know I have no money whatsoever, and that’s what is expected of us these days but I still have a lot to give. It’s not about having the latest gadgets, or car although it would be nice. It’s about being happy with yourself and with others. It’s about being you and fulfilling your destiny whatever that is mean’t to be. Me? Sometimes the best things in life are free and I think I’m mean’t to promote reading and book clubs as much as I can and to try a new  things, and find another form of exercise to get rid of my angst, without damaging my knees further. What do you think?

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Concentration and confidence are so hard to keep when tired

One serving of chocolate ice cream calms nerves, eases the mind and reduces both emotional and physical pain!

In the end we only regret the chances we didn’t take, the relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we took too long to make.

Why is ‘thank you’ such a hard thing to say? I wouldn’t get a big head or anything just like to e appreciated that’s all 😦

I am so clever that sometimes I don’t understand a single word of what I am saying. Oscar Wilde

Sweat is what happens when your fat is crying.

In a world of such advanced forms of communication, as human beings we are really crap at it.

Ricky Gervais ‏@rickygervais22 Sep Telling someone with mental illness to “pull themselves together” is as helpful as telling someone with AIDS to “just snap out of it”

You must do the thing which you think you cannot do. -Eleanor Roosevelt

Smiling as well as laughing while hurt can actually numb & or relieve the emotional pain in which you’re experiencing.

If you don’t go after what you want, you will never have it!

You don’t need other people to validate you, you’re already valuable.

Always and never are two words you should always remember never to use. – Wendell Johnson

Do not let the shadows of your past darken the doorstep of your future. Forgive and forget.

Psychology says, forgiving is not forgetting. It’s letting go of the hurt.

You’ll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine. – Anthony J. D’Angelo

Everything that you will ever need to accomplish any goal that you will ever set is sitting & waiting patiently inside of you

The people who are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you, no matter how far they wander.

Avoidance makes things worse; confrontation gradually improves life and overall mental health.

If you love someone tell them… because hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.


We all at certain times in our lives find ourselves broken. True strength is found in picking up the pieces.

True wisdom comes to each of us when we realize how little we understand about life, ourselves, & the world around us. -Socrates

Don’t confuse your path with your destination. Just because it’s stormy now doesn’t mean you aren’t headed for sunshine.

The most dangerous feeling is jealousy b/c jealousy creates insecurity … and insecurity creates hatred … and hatred kills you softly.

“You don’t always get what you wish for, you get what you work for.” Unknown

Time and health are two precious assets that we don’t recognize and appreciate until they have been depleted. -Denis Waitley

No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness. -Aristotle

Do not let the shadows of your past darken the doorstep of your future. Forgive and forget

Women aren’t necessarily moody, some just refuse to continue to pretend to like those who have lost their respect. (Take note people!!!!)

When you feel like quitting: think about why you started.

Keep your mind on the things you want and off the things you don’t want. -Hannah Whitall Smith

Sometimes you have to forget whats gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to what’s coming next.

‘One of our Dinosaurs is missing!!!’

*Spoilers and a note to readers please don’t read this if you haven’t seen it or incase I spoil it for you, you have been warned!*

Plot Summary

 (1975) More at IMDbPro »

Lord Southmere escapes from China with a microfilm of the formula for the mysterious “Lotus X”, and is captured by Chinese spies who have been instructed to retrieve the microfilm from him. Escaping from his captors, Lord Southmere hides the microfilm in the bones of a large dinosaur at the National History Museum. However, he has been followed into the museum by the spies, so Lord Southmere asks Hettie, (his former nanny), to retrieve the microfilm before the spies can find it. He is then promptly recaptured by the head spy, Hnup. Hettie, and her friend Emily (another nanny), devise a plan for a group of nannies to search for the microfilm, but they are unsuccessful in their endeavors. The spies then decide to steal the dinosaur, but are outmaneuvered by Hettie and Emily, who – with a young nanny named Susan – take the dinosaur skeleton on an unforgettable journey around the countryside. When Hettie’s two young charges, Lord Castleberry and his younger brother, Truscott, also become involved in the plot, all seems lost – especially for Lord Southmere! Written by David McAnally <>

Lord Southmere escapes from China with a microfilm of the formula for the mysterious “Lotus X”, and is captured by Chinese spies who have been instructed to retrieve the microfilm from him. Escaping from his captors, Lord Southmere hides the microfilm in the bones of a large dinosaur at the National History Museum. However, he has been followed into the museum by the spies, so Lord Southmere asks Hettie, (his former nanny), to retrieve the microfilm before the spies can find it. He is then promptly recaptured by the head spy, Hnup. Hettie, and her friend Emily (another nanny), devise a plan for a group of nannies to search for the microfilm, but they are unsuccessful in their endeavors. The spies then decide to steal the dinosaur, but are outmaneuvered by Hettie and Emily, who – with a young nanny named Susan – take the dinosaur skeleton on an unforgettable journey around the countryside. When Hettie’s two young charges, Lord Castleberry and his younger brother, Truscott, also become involved in the plot, all seems lost – especially for Lord Southmere! Written by David McAnally <>

The book the film was based on was called The Great Dinosaur robbery:

The Great Dinosaur Robbery by David Forrest

The Great Dinosaur Robbery is a now out-of-print book released in 1970 and written by David Eliades and Robert Forrest Webb under the pseudonym of David Forrest. The book was later the basis for the 1975 film One of Our Dinosaurs Is Missing.The book is set in New York City in the 1970s, and follows attempts by a group of British nannies who discover that a microdot containing Chinese military secrets that they believe to be vital to the survival of the British Empire has been hidden in a skeleton in the American Museum of Natural History. They cannot find the message, so contrive to steal the entire skeleton and mail it to the Queen. The Chinese agents who hope to retrieve the message, and the Americans searching for the missing dinosaur, play important roles. -Goodreads

My review

This morning, I found myself waking up at 5am and couldn’t get back to sleep. I had been sleeping on my friend’s sofa, no, I was not hungover I just got an unexpected invite for tea and ended up staying, and so I decided to switch the telly on. They have sky tv and so I spent time trying to see if anything was on and above film suddenly appeared with what looked like Miss Marple (Helen Hayes) driving  through the streets of Old London or been driven through on a bike by the ‘The First Lady of Carry On’ Joan Sims as Emily. It also had the reverend from Dad’s Army (Frank Williams) The scot Private James Fraser (John Laurie). When I was growing up we watched all these classics as Dad was in charge of tv so we watched Dad’s Army and Carry on films. Don’t get me wrong I loved these, but we could have watched more cartoons or even better Byker Grove, yes I come from up north and didn’t really get to watch it. 😦

Anyway lying in the semi- dark with the telly on really low and I mean sound level 2 or 3 trying not to make a noise and I’m finding myself giggling away. Sometimes it’s good to watch the old films. Granted they may look dated but they did amazing jobs with the technology they had and we forget this was the special effects of the time. I had caught the film part way through so the dinosaur was about to be pinched I believe and the trio of nannies were going to stop it. I can’t remember which came first as I was half asleep so either the fight to stop them taking the dinosaur happened or the fact they steal the lorry and have a car chase through the streets of London either way they had me giggling away that I had to try muffling my laughs behind a cushion.

It’s a film about ninja Nannies (ones who looked after children not your grandma type) protecting the country from disaster of a secret being uncovered attacking a Chinese army or gang, got a bit confused whether it was the Mafia or not and also when the nannies started doing kung-fu, with umbrellas???. If I am that flexible when I’m older I’m becoming a ninja nanny. While this was going on the boys who Miss Marple was looking after had started hitting the ‘baddies’ with stuff and the oldest says ‘that’s 2 points for me hitting so in so’ ‘you lose five points for hitting a nanny’ or something like that.

So amongst all this fighting the police are trying to investigate how the dinosaur was nabbed in the first place, because it wasn’t exactly small that you could slip it in your pocket. the Reverend was a crime scientist who worked out it was something along the lines of oriental aliens pinching the dinosaur which turned out to be the wrong dinosaur that had been taken away on a truck and driven around the foggy streets of London  by the ‘baddies’ for the van to be pinched by the Nannies ‘the goodies’ and Miss Marple being asked if she knew how to drive the truck and her reply was ‘yes it’s like driving a lorry’, and in those days it was fuelled by coal and Emily had to keep ‘filling up the tank’ so to speak.

My favourite bit was the car chase, because in those days it was most likely filmed in a studio and the cars were stationary and they had to act as if it was moving and it was the funniest thing ever. But the best bit was how they used the dinosaur, like when they are in the office/police station and the dinosaur head goes past the window and no one takes a blind bit of notice. Oh and the fog, how the dinosaur just appeared through the mist. A good film for October me thinks.

There are of course a lot of things wrong with this movie because times have changed so much, but for a bit of light entertainment, for me it was much needed after a long busy week. To me I could watch it over and over again. It has comedy, wit, nostalgia, good fighting evil, lessons to be learn’t on believing people, getting your facts right or in this case your dinosaurs and making sure if you’re going on a long journey make sure you have enough fuel.

I won’t tell you how it ended as you need to watch it yourself. It’s £4 on DVD and it’s well worth it. I hope I haven’t given too much away. oh and I have to show this poster again it’s amazing!!!!

MPW-48499 (1)

Thank you for reading.


#Friday the 13th part 3

  • Don’t mess with the boiler without the instructions you end up without hot water and a cold shower
  • Don’t over do it on your day off or think you’re invincible as getting older means it takes longer to recover
  • Mondays will always be difficult how ever positive you look at it
  • Be careful of coffee in paper cups especially near important paperwork 😀
  • Go on the less popular bus and you’ll get there ten times quicker I promise you
  • Be aware of things falling off top shelves
  • Tidying up is essential. Messyness is ugly
  • It’s amazing how as soon as one thing goes wrong you keep acting as nothing happened sometimes causing more problems 😀
  • Sleep is essential
  • Sharing is good
  • Everyone has their opinion and advice on who you should date best one being ‘Find yourself a fella with a big willy who likes books and have a house full of kids’ 😀
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  • A guy’s trousers fell down on the bus as he went to get off this morning. I was lucky only to see his bottom. either his trousers were to tight or it was a belt malfunction
  • I hate maths and anything to do with numbers
  • Appreciation for your efforts is much appreciated
  • ‘in 5 hours and 20mins gentlemen we hit the enemy toast’
  • As humans we find it very hard to communicate that it’s fooking annoying sometimes
  • We are all attention seekers
  • We all live in a little bubble which is worse when raining and it’s attack of the umbrellas

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The Perks of being a grown-up

” If you want treated like an adult, act like one. ” 

“Being an adult is nothing to do with chronological age but with maturity. To be mature is to take responsibility for your actions, being responsible for yourself,accepting that a job is a necessity not a choice, taking care of others and taking account of their wants and needs . you are not the centre of the universe and being adult and mature accepts this. Being adult means you must pay your own way in life ,you pay your bills on time and don’t take things for granted. You stop turning to your parents for money ,you live within your means .”

Some articles here****

“And that’s how society should regard adulthood—as a person’s own definition, not a crossed-out list of antiquated milestones. Whether we live on our own or have to live with our parents until we’re back on our feet, we are still adults. Whether we have kids or choose to be child-free, we are still adults. Whether we are freelancing or working 9 to 5, we are still adults.

We are not emerging. We are constantly developing into the people we’ve set out to be. After all, would you dare tell a 55-year-old who’s a caretaker to his parents and is going back to school to finally realize his dream that he’s not a “real” adult? Probably not.”

  • Your responsible for everything, what you say, do, yourself and others
  • You have to work  at home (free e.g.maintain the house) and in a job to pay for everything
  • you work 5 days a week only to see very little of your efforts after it goes on bills, clothes, food, booze/social life and come out at the end of the month with not much to show for it.
  • you have to ‘act’ all the time regardless of your feelings aka you’re feeling like you want to hide under the duvet and die but you have to put on a big smile and go to work
  • We care to much about what others think and feel the need to fit in instead of being who we truly are in good or bad times.
  • If we don’t have the right ‘look’ then you’re not part of that group
  • You can drink endless amounts of coffee and stay up late and it’s your own fault if you feel like crap next day.
  • You have to pay the bills unless you can live in a treehouse and no running water, electricity etc
  • You have to constantly fill that white box in the kitchen otherwise you won’t eat.
  • You always get down to the last toilet roll when you desperately need the loo
  • you still act like a 5-year-old and get jealous when someone has what you don’t
  • arguments, fights are messier whatever happened to a good old scrap?
  • We’re expected to know everything and anything.
  • The world is just one giant playground that we live in, there will always be bullies and there will always be people who think they are better than others and want to constantly undermine them or think being rude will get them what they want.
  • We are very selfish and get wrapped up in our own little bubbles that we believe our problems are bigger than others because we think we have more to deal due to the growing responsibilities, when in fact it’s just life and nobody is generally better off than anyone else.
  • Your house and furniture reflect who you are
  • The fairies don’t exist to clean your house or put the bins out

So remember it’s good to have fun once in a while because as adults we take life way to seriously, me being one of them. And when things go wrong brush it off, pick yourself up, have a good cry if need to and soldier, and the end of the day nobody else cares and we’re all trying to survive in this rat race of a playground.

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Yes I know today is Thursday but I came back from Holiday on Monday and my week started on Tuesday and its thrown me out completely. When it was 6.6.06 that day was fine no issues, however the next day I had to deal with a devil child on my photography training who pulled its mother’s hair and screamed the studio down. Today was one of those sorts of days that if we didn’t continue to laugh we would probably have both sat down and cried.

I have quite a lot to blog but seem to not have the time to sit down and do it and I’m amazed at how quick this year is disappearing. it’s quite shocking really. So I need to have a good clean of the house. get rid of stuff to the charity shops and sit down and do some work. Time for a fresh beginning. God, how many times have I said that lately.

I’ll keep you posted

Thank you for reading.


‘Oooop North’

Spending time with family is the best medicine sometimes can bring you back down to earth and remember what is important and that worrying about everything and anything from money getting tighter to people not being who you thought they were, to being treated like you’re a piece of dirt or trying to provoke a reaction out of them by talking to them texting them or anything like that is just pathetic.

I have had the most amazing fortnight and can’t believe how fast this year is running out. I really want to make the last of it stress free and hopefully I will stop spending money like it will go out of fashion, that and eating junk food when stressed isn’t helping my situation at the moment. I need to detach myself from a lot of things but not sure how.

We can all wish for a lottery win to make our lives better, we can all wish for a car, a house etc but its all material things and in the end they can break or given away quite easily. What can’t or shouldn’t is family and friends. I am lucky to have the family I have, I just spent a night at my cousins who made lethal woo woos and in return I used all of her loo roll.

As humans we all expect the best or that we should have the latest gadgets etc, when really our priorities are all wrong. Yes I want a house and car and latest mac book, but what I really want deep down is company. Sometimes living on my own is pants. As humans we need other humans but we also need to be aware not to live out of each others pockets. We need to give each other a little space sometimes so the time spent together is appreciated more.

As for wanting the best we should just be grateful for having a roof over our heads and make the most of it. There are hundreds of houses across the UK that are bordered up or getting demolished because they are ‘old fashioned’ when in fact they have better structure and character than houses built today. But no its easier and cheaper to take up more countryside and build houses of all different shapes and sizes with no garden or carparking space and walls that are made from paper.

Up home they have created a housing estate on an old factory ground and blocked access to lorries going to the industrial estate at the end causing all sorts of avouch and as the garages are put the back the home owners clutter the road with their cars. Does no one think about how things will work in real life when they plan these things?  On Mum’s estate they’re replacing people’s front gardens with drives, creating uneven paths and a paved area you could probably only park a kiddies bike on. What a waste. There are also have finished lampposts for some bizarre reason, I can never understand why jobs are half done, like the road at the top of the street, one half is brand new the other is old?

But my biggest gripe is I now see why there is an uprising against the bedroom tax. A couple moved in to the house next to Mum’s and it was already decorated from the previous owners and had a beautiful long garden which has now been turned into some sort of menagerie, but I don’t think it is. I thought the idea of council housing was that they placed you in suitable housing but apparently you have to bid the place. A couple apparently got a house with hardly any garden and had to do the place up now surely they should have got the house mentioned above as they may have one day wanted to make it into a family home? I think it all needs to start from scratch again and MPS should give up all their second homes and their should perhaps be a few that they could book out or book a room in and share with others at a small cost. would free up a lot of houses don’t you think?

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‘Everything changes but you’

We don’t always hear what we want to or believe it when its true

Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing. -Mother Teresa

Psychology says, people don’t always need advice. Sometimes all they need is a hand to hold, an ear to listen & a heart to understand.

Over thinking is mental self-destruction.

The difference between who you ARE and who you WANT TO BE is the work you put in.

Psychology says, we spend a lot of time obsessing over the thought of how things would have been if that one thing never happened.

Depression drains a person’s energy, optimism, & motivation. A depressed individual can’t just “snap out of it” by sheer force of will.

‘you’re coffee cup is on the side…wash it up’

‘We’ve come a long way, but we’re not too sure where we’ve been.
We’ve had success, we’ve had good times, but remember this.
Been on this path of life for so long,
Feel I’ve walked a thousand miles,
Sometimes strolled hand in hand with love,
Ev’ry body’s been there.
With danger on my mind I would stand on the line of hope,
I knew I could make it,
Once I knew the boundaries,
I looked into the clouds and saw my face in the moonlight,
Just then I realised whata fool I could be,
Just cause I look so high I don’t have to see me,
Finding a paradise wasn’t easy but still,

There’s a road going down the other side of this hill. 
Never forget where you’ve come here from, 
Never pretend that it’s all real, 
Someday soon this will all be someone else’s dream, 
This will be someone else’s dream. ‘

Just don’t let it be.

am: I keep adding loads of images that I’ve seen on the net or fb to my blogs instead of doing a written one as I’m trying to drum it in to me to be positive and try to change the way I think about myself and what I want from life. I have lost a lot of friends or people I thought of as friends but weren’t. I tend to care more for others than I do myself and don’t notice the true people who care about me. I feel a bit silly and selfish. I wasn’t popular at school and why I have the need to be like is anyone’s guess. But I think It’s more to do with living on my own and not seeing people regularly enough, either because of money, time or location.

pm: I’ve just been in to town to get a birthday present and a few pieces and was shocked at how much the price of clothing has gone up, I am convinced last time I bought underwear it was £5 for a pack of 5 now it’s £7 so I’m going all out ad trying Primani. I am so shocked. I also had a look in Victoria Secrets, gorgeous stuff but again I need a pot of gold to spend in there. Someone is very lucky if they can have stuff from there.  Maybe one day. Anyway I got the birthday gift, a lot of little things as I think it’s nicer to buy a few things sometimes then one big thing, or give something with a lot of thought in. That’s why I like my job as I can make things I design and say look I made that!

From today this is it, this is the new way forward time to take a new path and see where it leads. To get round to finish all the books piling up on my to-read list, especially how to stop worrying, so I can shut certain things off and not give a damn. It’s going to take hard work but it’s worth a try. Lets see how far we can get, I don’t want to waste the last 4 months of 2013. I want to make something of it.

One last thing, I put a bit of make-up on flash a bit of flesh and straighten my hair and I get told I scrub up well. charming. Should have seen me during the week if jeans and shirt do that. ;p

Life is too deep for words, so don’t try to describe it, just live it. -C.S. Lewis

I have an everyday religion that works for me. Love yourself first, and everything else falls into line. -Lucille Ball

The trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more. -Erica Jong

Psychology says, sometimes you have to forget whats gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to what’s coming next.

Red roses symbolize love; yellow, friendship; dark pink, gratitude; orange, desire; peach, appreciation; white, purity.

A woman is like a tea bag: you cannot tell how strong she is until you put her in hot water. -Nancy Reagan

Don’t let the silly little dramas of each day get you down. For you are here to do great things.

Farting is a good sign of a healthy core, it also keeps your immune system stronger & working properly.

Talking to yourself can improve your mood, enhance your intelligence and boost self esteem.

Thank you for reading