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Don’t Quit

My Mum recently gave me two things. One a candle with my name on the holder.

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Helen- An Intelligent and determined person

and a card with this poem on it:

Don’t Quit

When things go wrong,

as they sometimes will.

When the road you’re trudging

seems all uphill

When the funds are low

and the debts are high.

And you want to smile,

but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing you down a bit.

Rest if you must, but don’t quit.

Success is failure turned inside out.

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you never can tell

how close you are.

It may be near when it seems so far.

So, stick to the fight 

when you’re hardest hit.

It’s when things go wrong

that you mustn’t quit.

After re-reading this after a tough few months I’m glad I have my Mum, Sister,family and friends to fall back on. Not everyone is that lucky

Thank you for reading

xxx

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69 books for 2013

In 2013 I hope to read 69 books. 33 of which are my choice for my vast collection.

Below is the list I intend to read, not in any particular order, it’ll depend on timing. I’ll also list the books for bookclubs and will mark all books off once read with a star rating. 1 being poor/not liked – 5 being bloody brilliant! Also I’ll add and change books if they clash with bookclub. So here goes!

My 33 to read.

A mix of fiction and non-fitction

1.Awakenings – Oliver Sacks

2. The secret life of Houdini – William Kalush and Larry Solmen

3. Inside the whale and other stories – George Orwell

4. Black Beauty – Anne Sewell

5. Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens

6. Charles Dickens – Tale of Two Cities

7. An Essay on the art of ingeniously tormenting – Jane Collier

8. Ghost Stories of Henry James – Henry James

9. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists-Robert Tressell

10. Watership Down Richard Adams

11 -The Fault in our stars-John Green

12. The 100 year old man who climbed out the  window -Jonas

13. The Unquiet John Connolly

14. The Perks of being a Wallflower – Stephen Chbowsky *****

15. Charlotte’s Web – E.B. White

16. The Kings Speech – mark Logue and Peter Conradi

17. The five people you meet in heaven – Mitch Albom

18. The Quantum Universe – Brian Cox and Jeff Forshaw

19. A medal for Leroy – Michael Morpurgo *****

20.Nocturnes- John Connolly

21. Mr Toppitt – Charles Elton

22. Breakfast at Tiffanys-Truman Capote

23. The Art of Fielding – chad Harbach

24. The End of Mr Y- Scarlett Thomas

25. Operation Mincemeat -Ben Mcintyre

26 A Game of Thrones-

27. Interview with a vampire-Anne Rice

28. When God was a rabbit- Sarah Winman

29.  A Kestrel for a Knave by Barry Hines

30. Collected Stories – Richard Yates

31. The Silence of the lambs – Thomas Harris

32. The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins

33. Carter beats the devil – Glen David Gold

Enid Blyton Challenge for Leeds Book Club

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January- The Book of Brownies *****

February – Five on a treasure Island*****

February– the Adventures of Scamp (brought forward to include Mallory Towers) *****

March– The Secret Seven ***

April

May

June

Book club choices

White Swan Bookclub (run by Leeds Bookclub http://www.leedsbookclub.com/p/calendar_1.html)

January – Revolutionary Road – Richard Yates  (re-read for me so *****)
February – Weight – Jeanette Winterson ***  Find my first review for LBC at http://www.leedsbookclub.com/2013/02/wswan-lbc-and-canongate-book-08-weight.html

March- The Book Thief – Markus Zusak ***** 

May– The Eyre Affair – Jasper Fforde *****

June – The Fire Gospel – Michel Faber **
July– The Fictional Man – Al Ewing (to read if i can get a copy)

Leeds Central Library

January – The Forgotten Waltz – Anne Enright- Finished 6/1/12 *** Review here,spoilers. http://wp.me/p2CpmV-LW

LBC Puffins

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http://www.leedsbookclub.com/2013/01/details-for-our-first-lbc-puffins.html

February 20th – Matilda -Roald Dahl ****

June- The Sheep Pig – Dick King-Smith *****

July-Mrs Frisby and The Rats of Nimh*****

August – Coraline – Neil Gaimen****

September – The Secret Garden (to read)

LBC Outlaws

May – The Hound of the Baskervilles (check my review by clicking the link)
 Jun – The Glass Key ***
Jul – The Moving Toyshop  (to read)

South Leeds Community Radio

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http://www.southleedscommunityradio.org.uk/

info here and here

April – To Kill A Mocking Bird (re-read love it) *****
June- Stardust Neil Gaimen *****
July The White Queen – Phillippa Gregory **

Unexpected reads-Non bookclub or list choice

January

The Witches -Roald Dahl

The Little Brown Bear – Enid Blyton

Hit and Run – R.L.Stine (Point Horror)

Ethel and Ernest – Raymond Briggs

February

At the dying of the year by Chris Nickson review.pdf – review to follow

1/2/13 So, so far I haven’t been able to complete any of my reads off my own list but have added four unexpected reads. My challenge isn’t going as well as expected as I haven’t been able to read the one for Giraffe bookclub. I never realsied what a graphic novel was and it’s quite detailed. so for now will have to give it a miss.

6/1/12 update. Since I last wrote this another bookclub has been formed and I am so excited about this one. A few years back after reading loads of adult fiction and feeling bogged down by it all I started reading kids books. I had already started with Harry Potter but wanted something different. And now there is a bookclub dedicated to it. So I’ll be reading more than 69 books! Lets see if I can do it.

Oh and here’s the link to the newbookclub

http://www.leedsbookclub.com/2013/01/lbc-puffins-power-is-yours.html

March

The Silver Sword – Ian Serraillier Finished 17/3/13 *****

The Wizard of Oz Frank L. Baum

May

The Incredible Journey – Sheila Burnford

June

Practical Magic -Alice Hoffman

By my little sister. love this

Lofty is as Lofty does!


williMore specifically – nicknames?! Many of us have them and we give them to others. We also name inanimate objects for example my sister’s first car was called Boswell, then the hire car she named Bernard. Mum and I had a trolley we used for shopping called Trevor (may he rest in pieces!) A guy up the road is called Spuggy but I have no idea what his real name is. In fact some people are so well known by their nicknames it’s the only name most folk think they have no matter how odd it may be.

Many nicknames originate in childhood. Now let me be clear, I’m talking about actual nicknames not the name calling and taunting many of us have gone through in our younger years – that’s just bullying! At Junior School I briefly got a nickname of Janey Cheung from a tv programme we had…

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Crossing over to the Darkside

Yes, I’ve decided it’s time to (can’t belive I’m about to say this)  cross over to the Darkside and buy a Kindle, sorry I mean an E-reader. The reason being I’ve just been ‘up North’ for Christmas and had to decide what I wanted to take to read. Only problem was I took two books and came back with six. If you know me or have read the blog you know I love the paper forms of books. I think my stash has grown to at least 5 large storage boxes and I think I’ve only read probably one box worth. The problem I have is I love books! I’ll borrow from the library when I have loads at home (I feel the need to do this so they won’t shut it. I manage to read 80% of what I borrow)  and I love bookshops and especially charity shops. Do you know you can get a book for as little as 20p in a charity shop and it can still be in good nick???  Several years back in transition from Uni to ‘Adult’ life I was living in a caravan. And on the days on my own I used to go for a walk and then watch tv, but I used to get bored with that. Also the journey to work was at least 30mins on the train. So I decided i needed to start reading again. I got a 30p copy of Pride and Prejudice (which set me off with my love of Colin Firth) and from there I looked for different things to read. When I took up a photography job a couple of years later I ended up  not reading at all. When I lost my job due to the company going bust I had 3 months of doing nothing. This wasn’t intended, just a lot of things happened. I decided with my spare time to read some classics and see what other people were reading. I found this list  http://www.bbc.co.uk/arts/bigread/top100.shtml and attempted to work my way through it. This is my read from 2007-2012 http://wp.me/p2CpmV-EM I still have quite a few classics to read, I just need to stop wasting my time and useless things i.e. Facebook.

So these are my thoughts on e-readers: http://twificoo.com/the-art-of-reading-the-paperback-rather-than-the-ebook/ But after trailing all my stuff up North and then coming back with more than I could really carry I think it’s time to cross over to the darkside and by an e-reader. I am thinking of buying it in three weeks time around my birthday and that gives me time to look for a bargain. I’m thinking the simple original Kindle, because it’s around £60-£70 and I won’t feel so bad if I don’t like it I won’t have wasted too much and with the remaining money I can get some accessories (if I don’t get a deal) and treat myself to new clothes or something with the rest of the money. Good plan!

So if you have the Kindle or have used one let me know your thoughts.

The Simple original Kindle?

The Kindle Original from Amazon
The Kindle Original from Amazon.co.uk

http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B007HCCOD0/ref=famstripe_ks

Or the Paperwhite version?

The Kindle Paper from amazon.co.uk
The Kindle Paper from amazon.co.uk

http://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B007OZO03M/ref=sa_menu_kdpcwi5

Thank you for reading

xxx

Books read 2007-2012

2012

January

  • The Particular sadness of Lemon Cake. By Aimee Bender.

*** very weird book. Could have done with more explanation in parts.  Struggled due to no speech marks.

  • I capture the castle. Dodie Smith

*** Easy read. Wondered if the brothers would get together with each sister but didn’t see the swapping. Ending was alittle disappointed seemed a bit rushed.

  • Killing God – Kevin Brooks

***** really loved this book. Easy to read loved the narrative.

March

  • The Case of the Cottingley Fairies – Joe Cooper
  • The diary of a nobody=- George and weedon grossmith
  • This book is very funny. and amazing considering how old it is, is still relevant today. can’t believe it inspired other diaries.

April

  • One For The Money (Stephanie Plum #1) by Janet Evanovich
  • The Spare Room Helen Garner ***
  • Glass Houses (The Morganville Vampires #1) by Rachel Caine

May

  • Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen *
  • Fifty Shades of Grey by E.L. James

June

  • The travelling hornplayer – Barbara Trapido
  • American Gods by Neil Gaiman

July

  • The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler, Gloria Steinem
  • The Black Angel (Charlie Parker #5) by John Connolly
  • Run Fat Bitch Run by Ruth Field
  • The Good Man Jesus and the Scoundrel Christ(Canongate Myths #16) by Philip Pullman

 
August

  • The Book Of Lost Things – John Connolly *****
  • Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? Winterson, Jeanette
  • The Running Man by Stephen King, Richard Bachman (Pseudonym)

October

  • Winter’s Bone – Daniel Woodrill
  • The Demon- Headmaster- Gillian Cross
  • Stardust -Neil  Gaimen
  • Write –(non fiction) Sarah Quigley
  • Lighthousekeeping Jeannette Winterson
  • Mrs Frisby and The Rats of Nimh – Robert C. O’Brien 

November

  • George’s marvellous medicine – Roald Dahl
  • Michael Morpurgo – War child to War Horse – Michael Morpurgo
  •  Brave New World Aldous Huxley
  •  The History Boys Alan Bennett

December

  • 12/12/12 The Hobbit – Tolkein

2011
January

  • The Murder of Roger Ackroyd: A Hercule Poirot Mystery – Agatha Christie

March

  • The Art of Racing in the rain: Garth Stein

 April

  • The Uncommon Reader: Alan Bennett
  • Howards End is on the landing : Susan Hill

May

  • The Common Reader: Virginia Woolfe

June

  • My Sister’s Keeper: Jodi Picoult
  • (1st July) When did you last see your father? Blake Morrison.

July

  • Hellsbells : John Connolly
  • Boy: tales of childhood: Roald Dahl

August

  • Along Came a Spider: James Patterson
  • Woman in black: Susan Hill

November

  • One hand clapping: Anothony Burgess

2010
January

  • The Lost Symbol  – Dan Brown
  • Dark Hollow – John Connolly

February

  • Let the right one in – John Ajvide Lindqvist
  • Queen Victoria -Demon Hunter – A.E.Moorat
  • Three cups of Tea – Greg Mortenson & David Oliver Relin

March

  • The elegance of the hedgehog  –  Muriel Barbery
  • The adventures of Pinocchio  – Carlo Collodi
  • A special providence – Richard Yates
  • Shutter Island – Dennis Lehane
  • Fahenheit 451 – Ray Bradbury

April

  • The boy who loved books – John Sutherland
  • The Gates – John Connolly
  • The Killing Kind – John Connolly

May

  • To kill a mocking bird – Harper Lee

June

  • Girl with a Dragon Tattoo – Steig Larsson
  • Eclipse – Stephanie Meyer
  • The short life of Bree Tanner – Stephanie Meyer

July

  • White Road – John Connolly 

2009

January

  • The English Patient – Michael Ondaatje
  • The suspicions of Mr Whicher – Kate Summerscale

February

  • The luminous life of Lily Aphrodite – Beatrice Collins
  • The story of Anne Frank – Mirjam Pressier
  • A Room with a view – E.M.Forester
  • A Diary of a nobody – George Grossmith
  • One flew over the cuckoo’s nest – Ken Kessey
  • The Divine Comedy – Dante Alighieri
  • Lord of the Flies – William Golding
  • Voluptuous Delights of Peanut butter and Jam – Laura Lienberg
  • Down & Out in Paris– George Orwell

April

  • 1974 David Peace
  • New Moon – Stephanie Meyer

 May

  • Around the world in 80 Days – Jules Verne
  • The psychic adventures of Derek Akorah
  • Chitty Chitty Bang Bang – Ian Fleming

June

  • The Illustrated Man – Ray Bradbury
  • Firmin – Sam Savage

July

  • Invisible man – Ralph Ellison
  • The Invisible Man – H.G.Wells

August

  • Every Dead Thing – John Connolly
  • The Poet Michael Connelly

September

  • The life of Charlotte Bronte – Elizabeth Gaskell
  • The chemistry of death – Simon Beckett
  • The alchemist – Paul Coalo
  • The turn of the screw – Henry James

October

  • Emily Bronte – Robert Barnard – The British Library writers lives

November

  • The princess Bride – William Goldman
  • The Diving bell and the butterfly –  Jean-Dominique Bauby
  • Oranges are not the only fruit – Jeanette Winterson
  • Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
  • Things the grandchildren should know -Mark Oliver Everett,

2008

  • The secret life of bees – Sue Monk Kidd
  • Narrow dog to carcassonne – Terry Darlington
  • Dead Famous – Ben Elton
  • Atonement – Ian McEwan
  • Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold
  • The interpretation of Murder – Jed Rubenfeld
  • How to talk to a widower – Jonathan Tropper
  • High Fidelty – Nick Hornby
  • Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks
  • Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini
  • From Baghdad with Love – Jay Kopelman and Melinda Roth
  • Catch 22 – Joseph Heller
  • Russian Concubine – Kate Furnivall
  • The Outcast – Sadie Jones
  • Empress Orchid – Anchee Min
  • The Farm: The Story of One Family and the English Countryside – Richard Benson
  • The Time Traveller’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger
  • Geisha of Gion: The Memoir of Mineko Iwasaki by Mineko Iwasaki and Rande Brown
  • Broken Biscuit – Liz Kettle
  • Poppy Shakespeare – Clare Allan
  • The Last Empress – Anchee Min
  • Notes from an exhibition – Patrick Gale
  • Mrs.P’s Journey: The Remarkable Story of the Woman Who Created the A-Z Map
  • by Sarah Hartley
  • The Thirteenth Tale – Diane Setterfield
  • Random Acts of Heroic love – danny scheiman
  • The 39 Steps – John Buchan
  • The boy in the striped pyjamas – John Boyne
  • Diary of Anne Frank – Anne Frank
  • Carrie’s War – Nina Bawdon
  • The Silver Sword – Ian Serrailler
  • I am David – Ann Holm
  • The Notebook – Nicolas Sparks
  • Journey to nowhere – Eva Figes
  • Warhorse – Michael Morpurgo
  • Butterfly Lion – Michale Morpurgo
  • Alone on a wide, wide sea – Michael Morpurgo
  • The amazing story of Adolphus tips – Michael Morpurgo
  • The Reader – Bernard Schlink
  • Goodnight Mr Tom – Michelle Magorian
  • Private Peaceful – Michael Morpurgo
  • Revolutionary Road – Richard Yates
  • A Christmas Carol –  Charles Dickens
  • Twilight  -Stephanie Meyer

2007

  • Moll Flanders –  Daniel Defoe
  • Animal Farm  – George Orwell
  • 1984 – George Orwell
  • Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier
  • Catcher in the Rye  –  J.D. Salinger
  • Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
  • Chronicles of Narnia  – C.S. Lewis
  • Vanity Fair – William Thackery
  • Man & Boy  – Tony Parsons
  • Man  & Wife  – Tony Parsons
  • Savage Garden – Mark Mills
  • Memory Keeper’s Daughter – Kim Edwards
  • Treasure Island – Robert Stevenson
  • Harry Potter and the Dealthy HallowsJ.K. Rowling

On Reading Children’s Stories as an Adult

I’m glad someone else shares my love for children’s books

Multo (Ghost)

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Adults do read children’s stories. I’m probably the only reader in the English-speaking world, of any age, who hasn’t yet read a Harry Potter book (I know, I know, me of all people…). And I have friends who admit to having read at least one Twilight novel. They usually say in the same breath that it wasn’t very good — but I notice they keep on reading them. The Hobbit is a children’s book. I read it over and over again when I was a child, and a few times in adulthood, too. Yet I couldn’t make it through a single chapter of whichever book is the first volume of The Lord of the Rings.

Well-written children’s fantasy, or a least the kind that appeals to adults (well, to me, anyway) has a kind of dancing, twinkle-toed language that one doesn’t usually find in books for adults, fantasy…

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The end of the world as we know it: Part 2

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Bought for us today.

So the world didn’t end at 11:11am or was it mean’t to be 11:11pm?? time differnece and all that. and if it did end and a ‘new’ world started, well it’s not much better than the first is it?

This morning I had a missed call on my phone from my sister  and for life of me couldn’t get back in touch and then around dinner time I gave her a call, worried like I do that something was wrong, it wasn’t. She was ringing on behalf of my Dad who thought I might not be safe due to the world ending today. Here’s what she put on Facebook this morning:

“Sky News decided they needed 2 tell people that the Apocalypse didn’t arrive! Really? As if 11:11 am going by without a squeak n say ooh I dunno,every1 still being here wasn’t enough of a hint. Following conversation with me Dad…
Dad: Have u heard from ur sister?
Me: No,but Sky ses we’re alive so it must b ok.
Dad: U better txt her 2 b sure. (Pointless txt msg sent)
Has she replied?
Me: I only just sent it! She’s probably busy at work or dead, either way ur not gonna hear from her 4 a while!”

So the end of the world didn’t happen and work carried on as normal, well what were we worried about??? I mean I put a lucky dip on the euros tonight, I don’t want the jackpot, just a few million and granted it’s not a very good dip, all the high numbers, but as usual there’s always wishful thinking and as it’s Christmas, someone might be kind.

Going back to today I only managed to whack a box against my leg, it wasn’t as bad as the last two days incidents, so that’s a good sign. I’ve bee full of snot today and have had sneezing fits, which luckily didn’t happen when I had a tool in my hand. . 🙂 I’ve managed to get through the day It’s funny how a cold can effect your ability to function normally and  I’m pleased I only have two more to go and Christmas madness is over (I shouldn’t complain it’s been very good for business, it’s just felt like harder work this year) and I get to go ‘up north’ for some rest and my Mum’s cooking! 😀 I am wondering whether three books are a bit excessive for four days but you never know. I think I might turn off my phone for that time and use my camera to record anything. Not sure how long that will last.

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Three reads for xmas

Oh and the choice of songs at work was quite comically, we had Kate Bush singing wuthering heights?. Queen singing, I want to break free, Tom Jones singing it’s not unusual and others indicating end of something, I knew I should have wrote them down as now I felt like I’m babbling.

So goodnight and hope you are celebrating ‘the new world’ and Santa brings you what you asked for.

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Thank you for reading

xxx

Four more sleeps and I will be fed properly!!!

Sounds daft I know, I should be more excited about Christmas but I’m spending Christmas at my Mum’s and won’t have to worry about what I’m eating as I’ll eat whatever Mum cooks, however I have put an order in for a cornbeef pie and chips for Christmas Eve and I know we’ll have a proper Christmas dinner so that’s two days sorted!

I’m getting a bit tired both physically and mentally. I have so much to sort out that can’t be sorted out and today I spent most of it sorting emails out and didn’t realise how mentally draining that is. Plus I didn’t get chance to do my exercises for my knee and it seemed to lock mid afternoon and I was freezing to so I ended up feeling like poo by 4pm and counting down the hours until home time. Luckily I got to go an hour early after the chaos yesterday.

This morning I went in search of the last Christmas present. I went in search of socks. I went all over for £5 gift and went into Next and was too busy thinking, and obviously wasn’t paying attention and that what I thought was a continuation of the store was in fact a mirror and I bounced straight off it, not realising what had happened was shocked at the person staring at me only to realise it was me and I had walked into the column covered mirror. Quite clearly it did not lead to the sock section or as someone pointed out ‘the back door to Narnia’ I still can’t believe I did it and it’s kept me smiling today.

So I did sort the last present out and I have thawed out and tomorrow is another day. The blog has a new look and has a new menu on the ‘about me’ section and it only took 30 minutes of faffing!

Now time to wash up before bed!

Thank you for reading

xxx

and for everyone a baby penguin!

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Have you ever wanted to scream and go ‘why me? stop playing games!!’

good things and good people…

“Optimism is a happiness magnet. If you stay positive, good things and good people will be drawn to you.” – Mary Lou Retton (From Jump for Joy blog)

Last night I was at the bus stop after staying longer to help shift the backlog, I missed one bus and had to wait 30mins for a bus, only for that to be late. I ended up talking to people Simply because of there accent. They were from London, they had been on the phone and the conversation (yes I was listening in) was about work and how this time of year was getting to them and when people get fed-up it’s time for change. She was also complaining that another woman in the office wasn’t pulling her weight and soon the manager would realise this when she looked at the filing system or something. Yes I took a lot in, I was bored and fed-up of the cold and my knee aching. Anyway I asked where she came from and she said London and had been in Leeds 5 years, She thought I might be but I said I had moved from County Durham about 11 years ago, her reply was which made me laugh ‘We’re both Immigrants then!’
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So on to the question I have to ask as this is how I felt when I woke up this morning.
Have you ever felt like you’ve ran into a brick wall?
I don’t mean physically, I’ve never ran at one on purpose on by accident although when I was little I walked into a lamppost with my toy pram, lost a nail on my finger and buckled the wheel on my pram. Back tot he point in hand. This time of year it’s very hard to stay positive. extra strain is put on resources and onto people. This week I am out of my routine. I have to start work later and yesterday everything from start to finish made me wish I hadn’t bothered. I slept in longer, I woke up full of snot, I then faffed about getting ready I had to try run for the bus (not supposed to put pressure on the knee) and then from the word go it was hectic. I felt lost.
I was mean’t to be going for a drink and catch-up with two old friends but had to cancel because I felt dreadful and had a feeling (these keep coming true lately and it’s scary! instinct might be working again) it wouldn’t be a good idea, not enough time to have a good chin-wag/moan/laugh.  By about 2pm I realised I would have to stay an hour longer just to be able to tidy up and check what was needed to do the next day was all prepared. So I ended up getting back late, I had nothing to eat, didn’t think it was a good idea in case it made me stay awake.  The reason I asked if you have ever felt like running into a brick wall was because this year I have tried and tried to improve my lifestyle live within my means (not working!!) cope with both work and running a house and every time I seem to be getting anywhere another door slams in my face.
Yes it sounds very negative and believe me I’m trying not to be I’m just getting fed-up of everything being a struggle, just let me get on with my life, and finally starting to be happy again and now once again I have to take action.
arrrggghhhhh! Christmas is mean’t to be or so we believe time of goodwill and all that rubbish. So far I have found out that some one I care deeply about is ill and has been for a while and he’s done so much for me and I can’t do a darn thing for him apart from give him a hug and I feel helpless. Another person has lost their Mum, granted she had a good life and had been ill recently but you’re never too old to be affected by the loss of your Mum. Then I return home last night to a letter from the landlord requesting more money from me in the new year. Thanks for the timing on that one!!! Now I have to think what I’m going to do and whether I keep all the inanimate objects I’ve fallen in love with and have bought with hard earn cash or whether  sell it for next to nothing or give it to charity. I did say I didn’t want so much responsibility next year I just wish whoever was listening could give me a bit more time or perhaps could have listened to my wish of a small lottery win. Yes we think money solves anything. We also think if we had a ‘new’ phone or whatever our heart desires our lives would be far better when in fact once we get what we wanted we are only truly happy for a short period of time and then we go back to the same old cycle and never truly realise that we don’t need these things and what we actually have inside our selves and the relationships we form with family and friends is far better than wanting things we simply can’t afford,have or need.
So whoever is out there listening to me please give me a bit of a break?!? I have felt like this year has been a bit of a roller-coaster  Things constantly changing. I have loved bookclub and now I have a published review on there (still chuffed to bits with that!). I have ran 3-10ks and that is my proudest achievement to date! I love my job it’s helped me realise that all that studying and training at uni wasn’t a complete waste of time. I’ve l also started writing this year, again was not that good at school, but have been writing this blog and then went onto to do a mini course at the local radio station which looks like it’s opened some other doors for next year.
My ‘what if’s’ of the the year is as high as a mountain and if I hadn’t have gone for a run in the woods my knee might not have got damaged and i could have continued my new love. I think that’s  why I tried photographing again and started writing, needed another form of releasing stress and to feel better about myself.
So what should we do at this time of year? When everyone is under pressure to get the ‘big’ day right? When everyone is worrying it won’t go right? That they have to get the ‘perfect’ present, I think this applies more so this year with the lack of money floating about. What we should be doing is rallying around each other, make each other laugh when things get too much. Offer the small gesture say a chocolate bar or a hug just to bring the spirits up or as my sister did, give something, I found a parcel at work yesterday and thought ‘what have I been ordering’ then realised it was from her and thought what book has she sent but instead it was again two music cds. This was just priceless, it wasn’t what I was expecting but it came at the right time and had me roaring with laughter and my colleagues looking at me more strangely then ever. So thank you Sis, that came at the right time and just what I needed. Love you loads.
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The two Cds sent as a joke by my sister
Thank you for reading
xxx