Hello from me to you

I haven’t blogged in a while, I’ve actually been quite busy, but I notice if I don’t write down what’s going on, on here or in a book, after a while it starts to effect me. Recently I will try to spark a conversation and find someone’s seen it on Facebook, or I may have told them a couple of days ago and forgot.

A couple of years ago before I seeked help, I led a path of destruction on social media, without realizing or knowing it, a collection of messages were kept and used against me. At one point I got really cautious and stopped posting personal stuff then things gradually built up again.

Now it feels like it’s happening again. I don’t get chance to explain myself, if I do its seen as excuses, some in fairness perhaps are, a bad habit I picked up because people didn’t want the truth. Now it’s happening again. Nothing is secret and although its keeping others informed, it makes me feel like I’m being spied on and not trusted again. Some of this is building up to how I’m feeling and I know I’m making too much of a big of a deal out of it, but I’ve come along way and still continue on working through things. The thing is I don’t live with anyone, I work full time and go to book club and see friends as much as I can, that means I generally have loads to tell people, genrally waffle but its good to chat.

At the moment I am working on building my memory back up. The pile of notebooks get bigger, the filofax is hardly from my side and now I have google calendar which is taking ages to get used to. So I might just make memory books and keep them for myself and not bother telling anyone anything as they would prefer to find it of fb or someone else.

Hello! I’m over here! Yes we all make the mistake of relying on text based messages instead of ringng. we check fb instead of texting or ringing or going round to that persons house. We don’t communicate clearly anymore and we need to.

So for now I’m disappearing of social media and concentrating on other things.

Thank you for reading

xxx

Letting go of technology

Originally posted on It's all about the Yes:

I saw a Facebook post meme today that got me thinking:

“This summer put your phone away for a few days. Make some memories that no one knows about. Make some memories that are just yours”

In this age of oversharing – whether it’s on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and all teh new ones I’ve not bothered to learn it seems next to impossible to have a secret or do something just for yourself. We even photograph our food to share. I’ve been very guilty of this in the past. During times of my worst depression I spent hours on these sites (and the games) losing myself in other people’s lives. The over-sharing can be like watching a soap opera with some people. I’ve spent far too many hours flicking through status updates, pictures of cats and cute babies (ok there’s nothing wrong with the last two :) ).

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James Gunn Reveals Guardians of the Galaxy Sequel Title

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Even if the Guardians of the Galaxy can only come up with 12% of a plan, director James Gunn has revealed 100% of the Guardians sequel’s title. The film will be called…

Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2.

Gunn, who has been hard at work on the film’s script, made the title official on his Twitter and Facebook pages after Marvel’s Kevin Feige let the title slip while discussing Ant-Man with Collider.

“Kevin Feige recently let the title slip while doing Ant-Man press, which I’m really happy about because God knows I’ve let more than one thing slip accidentally while chattering away on this FB page,” Gunn joked on his Facebook page.

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12 valuable lessons Disney villains taught all children

Originally posted on Metro:

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It’s shameful to admit but some of Disney’s best characters were the villains.

Whether it was the hilarious fits of rage from James Woods’ Hades or the sheer sass of the evil Ursula from The Little Mermaid, every child had a Disney baddie that they secretly (or not so secretly) adored.

But they weren’t just entertaining – they taught us some of the most important life lessons we still hold close to us today.

Here are just some of the ways Jafar, Scar, Kaa and co educated us in childhood and helped to shape us into the flawless adults we all are today.

Lesson One: The importance of paperwork

Ursula taught us that binding contracts are a necessary part of every deal. We can thank her for all of our business sense as we are always sure to triple check that paperwork when stealing voices securing deals.

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My house and I

In October of this year it will be 5 years of moving into this house and living on my own. Up until then I had always been surrounded by people, from my parents and sister to fellow students to a now ex boyfriend. Never did I think I would be alone, and when I first moved in here I didn’t think about cost of bills, or running a house on my own. It hasn’t been an easy ride. There were several reasons for moving into this house, one being familiarity, after 6 years in a back to back it didn’t seem to far from home, but looking back I wonder whether I should have waited and gone for something smaller or with two entrances, but hindsight is a wonderful thing. For ages I didn’t feel like it was home, stuff sat in boxes and I didn’t really unpack, I just bought more junk in.

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I can still remember the first week of moving in. no sound, no one else in here, there’s no door to the kitchen and for ages I thought I could hear a door creak. I would come in after work switch the telly on so there was noise and then just waste the evening not sure what to do. At one point I couldn’t be in the house and stayed away and then I needed to be realisitc and tried to keep busy, mainly wasting time on the internet.6

Then the following year everything changed. A friend suggested going to book club as I like reading. I went to World Book Night and found out about Leeds Book Club and you know the story from there. I also completed my first 10k. After only running for a few weeks and raised money for charity. Things kept changing and by 2014 it felt like everything was falling apart again, I started looking for other places to live but it would have mean’t living with others. Downsizing to something like the size of a single bedroom, with damp in bathrooms, small self in a fridge. I looked at so many places but I just could not bring myself to do it. 8

In the end because I lost my job I ended up staying put. I had a thought about moving back up north but things weren’t to great at home, I never got on with my Dad and the following year he finally left my Mum. I asked a dear friend if I could move in with them if it got worse. But in the end I had managed to get a job quite quickly, although temporary it helped. That’s when I ended up at the coffee shop. The one constant thing that stayed the same was the house. the walls, the furniture inside it is mine, I have way too many cushions, I can leave clothes on the floor and no one complains. I can do what I want. I can sit in silence or play music, I have plenty of room to hang washing out. It’s my home. And it will sound silly, but its the one thing protecting me that I’m finally feeling like I can settle. And no its not because I’m to lazy to move, I just have loads of junk to get rid of from past 10 years and change can have a big effect on you especially when so much else is going on.

5So for now while I continue to ‘fix’ myself and work out what I want to do, I’m staying put, enjoying the comforts it brings and trying to read and work whilst sorting out the rubbish.

Thankyou for reading

xxx

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Children’s camp forced to change monument because it looks like genitals

Originally posted on Metro:

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One of the most evolved traits of human beings is our ability to spot phalluses in everyday objects… we assume.

That might be why an installation at at children’s camp has been altered because locals have pointed out how much it resembles male genitalia.

The innocent creation of the giant sausage and bread roll was intended to celebrate the local food known as a ‘kovbasa’.

However rather than show a respect for the local Crimean delicacy, visitors to the park have instead been left in fits of giggles due to the monument.

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Officials have now decided to discretely remove part of the scene to make it slightly less X-rated.

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Heinz apologises after ketchup bottle QR code links to hardcore porn site

Originally posted on Metro:

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Heinz has apologised after a QR code on the back of bottles of ketchup directed users to a hardcore porn website.

The QR code – the matrix barcode found on the back of some products – was supposed to link to a webpage where you could design your own ketchup label, and it did between 2012 and 2014.

But when the link expired this year, Fundorado, a hardcore porn site, registered the website for itself.

‘It’s incomprehensible that [they] didn’t reserve the domain for one or two years,’ said German customer Daniel Korell, who discovered the mistake.

‘It really doesn’t cost the Earth.’

Heinz wrote on Facebook that they ‘regret the event very much.’

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Survey reveals milky tea is THE WORST

hello from me to you:

I don’t drink tea but I know a few who do

Originally posted on Metro:

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It’s official. There is no greater sin than a milky cuppa.

It’s a well-known fact (on these shores at least) that a good cup of tea can make a morning.

But what sets one cuppa apart from another?

Well, funny you should ask.

A survey of 2,000 (conducted by military charity SSAFA to mark their Big Brew Up 2015) has revealed our biggest pet peeves when it comes to our morning brew.

In at number one (and rightly so) is tea which is too milky. Moving away from the tea itself, the second biggest scourge was tea being served in a mug which hadn’t been rinsed properly *shudder*, while third place went to ‘watery residue on top of tea’.

Tea Would you take a cuppa with the bag still in? (Picture: Flickr/ RobynLee)

Other brew blunders with the potential to ruin a tea-lovers morning included serving someone…

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Batman’s new ride has been revealed… so here’s a definitive ranking of ALL the Batmobiles

Originally posted on Metro:

LAS VEGAS, NV - JUNE 09:  The Batmobile from "Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice" movie franchise on display during the Licensing Expo 2015 at the Mandalay Bay Convention Center on June 9, 2015 in Las Vegas, Nevada.  (Photo by Gabe Ginsberg/Getty Images) The Batmobile from Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice is a little tank-y (Picture: Getty Images)

The Batmobile from the upcoming Batman v Superman has been revealed.

We’ve finally got the first proper look at the vehicle Ben Affleck’s Batman will be driving in Dawn Of Justice.

As you can see, it’s a completely different animal to Christian Bale’s big-wheeler.

Let’s see how it compares to the other Batmobiles over the years.

6. Batman & Robin (1997)

Batman and Robin (Picture: Warner Bros)

Chris O’Donnell said ‘Chicks dig the car’, but we beg to differ.

Specs include: Flame columns, front and rear grappling hooks, ejection seat, voice-activated computer

Pros: Erm…the way the wheels light up?

Cons: Is there a fire in the bonnet? Because it looks like there’s a fire in the bonnet. And the open top driver’s seat looks unsafe.

5. Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice (2016)

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Batffleck will take…

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