‘My name is Michael Caine’

my name is michael  and not a lot of people know that

Well no it’s not it’s Helen, but you wouldn’t think it these days. My identity seems to be getting lost. I’m being constantly compared with others, that on some days I don’t know who I’m expected to be. And when that happens, I wonder if it’s either easier to act the way the person wants or just to shut down.


With the seasons changing I’m finding it harder to motivate myself on a morning. My sleep patterns can vary from a fantastic 8 hour sleep to a distured 2 hour sleep. My short term memory is non existant at times, mostly when I get stressed these days, and like this morning I find I do silly things like put the TV remote in my bag and the phone on the TV/DVD player. Or I become so busy I don’t know whether I’m coming or going and jobs get missed and things go missing.

I’m also very much into self improvement. Living on my own isn’t always plain and sailing and on top of that I work long days. I do my best to ask for help but in most cases some things are best done by myself making more work for me. I have always wondered why I have been seen as a joke to some people, and why they think I don’t fit in their gang and yet sometimes I just don’t care. I will do things and sometimes not in the way people expect and yet for some it is never good enough.

Also being single doesn’t fit well with most people. I chose to be single because to me at this point in time, it is so much easier, I can’t get hurt, I don’t have to worry about others, and most of all I am on a journey to ‘fix’ myself, even know I have had  a few setbacks, I’m still shuffling along and the best bit is I can do what I want and not ask anyone’s permission.

So please don’t compare me to others, I am who I am and although however strange I may appear to you, I think I’m an alright person.

And yes I do believe Colin Firth IS the only Mr Darcy, EVER!


Thank you for reading



LBC Outlaws – Don’t Tell – Karen Rose

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This is what I love about book club

Originally posted on LeedsBookClub:

LBC Outlaws

Date:  Wednesday 4th of November 2015
Time:  6:00pm
Address: Harper Street, LS2 7EA





Desperate Mary Grace Winters knew the only way to save herself and her child from her abusive husband was to stage their deaths. Now all that remains of her former life is at the bottom of a lake.

As Caroline Stewart, Mary Grace has almost forgotten the nightmare she left behind nine years ago. Slowly she has learned to believe that her new life, and new identity, is here to stay.

Then her husband uncovers her hidden trail. Step by step he’s closing in on her and everyone she loves. Now Caroline must decide whether to flee again or whether the time has come to stay and fight..

dont tellThis was an event we were all looking forward to. I read it and had …opinions. A couple…

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The Helen Project-update

I recently read a book called –The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying: A simple, effective way to banish clutter forever by Marie Kondo. I was told about it by a friend and I was quite interested to see what it was about. I loved everything about it, once Ifinished it I couldn’t pick up another book and settle. I had to start on the tidying and sorting. Within a few hours I had got rid of two boxes. Amazing.

‘The key to successful tidying is to tackle your home in the correct order, to keep only the things you really love and to do it all at once – and quickly. After that for the rest of your life you only need to choose what to keep and what to discard.’

I’ve been trying to clear out for a couple of years now. I’ve got so much stuff in this house, and it keeps building. Some of it is at least 12 years old and just sat in boxes. I’ve since cleared out paperwork, old college work, books unread or not likely to be reread and reorganised the bedding and towels.

In recent months I’ve tried Reiki and crystal healing, and although I’ve had odd effects from it, it has felt like it has helped. The only problem is, is that so much negativity has built up over the years, trying to reverse that has had some odd side effects. The main one being around the throat and the sensation of being strangled or constant pressure on my throat. When I first had it done I ended up with a terrible headache and then wanted to cry. In the past year I have developed a hate for negativity, if someone is in a bad mood I will stay away from them the best I can, I do try talking to them but get the same response my Dad used to give, and it was always a sulky/ snappy response. So I leave the person/s to it. I just don’t want to waste my energy on them.


I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before but I have a terrible memory and sometimes it can’t be quite bad. I can do something, get distracted and completely forget what I was doing in the first place. The other week I was sorting my bag out on my bed (I don’t normally do this) I then tidied up, not realising I hadn’t put the bus pass back. Went to bed and slept, and then found it missing. In the end I walked to work and got the bus back only to find it sometime later when I went to tidy the duvet up.

I’ve also had some family related issues to deal with, which I didn’t realise had affected me so much, but made me angry and upset at the same time. This topped with work, and feeling really tired, and no motivation at the moment just left me drained. Today I seem to have fixed that. I started again on this clearing malarkey and started cleaning the carpets. They hadn’t been done since I moved in 5 years ago, and boy is it filthy.


I only noticed it when i moved the rug by accident and saw a dark patch and then there was the area near the door where I walk to the kitchen and back.  So today was about cleaning the house and I ended up cleaning the living room twice and both times the machine came up with black water. I’ve even had to give the machine a deep clean as there was all sorts of crap in there. Best bit is though after the new way of getting rid of stuff and cleaning the house, especially the living room, feels a lot lighter. Like the energies have changed and that it’s actually my home, it belongs to me and I have the headache and throat problem again which means that the energy has shifted and I am really proud of myself.

The result is I have now got another 6 bags for charity, I’ve cleared out at least 6 bags of rubbish and now there’s just a few repairs need doing, and bob’s your uncle. My home is my home and it has a fresh start and tomorrow I can begin the day feeling more positive. I can’t wait until the weekend to do the finishing pieces of cleaning and then I can start enjoying being the house rather than dreading coming home every so often.


Face like a melted welly

Originally posted on Hello from me to you:

After a long week and it’s only Wednesday here’s a bit more cheery blog :D

I learn’t something new today. At work someone said to his colleague, ‘what’s up? you have a face like a melted welly!’ I started laughing ad asked what did he mean. He said all wrinkly and miserable.


From Urban Dictionary

1.         Melted Welly

Do have dubious facial qualities. To be ugly.”You see that Pink? She’s got a face like a melted welly”

2.         Melted Welly    When a persons face resembles a melted wellington boot.

tomo’s face is like a melted welly

So I’ve been looking up other sayings to do with the face, and here goes

A baby face

A face in the crowd

A face like a bulldog chewing a wasp

A face like a fiddle

A face like an unmade bed

A face like the back of a bus

A face like thunder


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Theatre review: The Kite Runner at the @WYPlayhouse, Leeds

Originally posted on Hello from me to you:

*Please don’t read this if you’re going to see the play*

The Blurb!

Khaled Hosseini’s debut novel The Kite Runner first hit the bookshelves in 2003 and became a best seller in the United States, voted the Reading Group Book of the Year for 2006 and 2007 before being made into a BAFTA and Golden Globe-nominated film in 2007.  Set against a backdrop of tumultuous events, from the fall of Afghanistan’s monarchy through the Soviet invasion, the exodus of refugees to Pakistan and the United States, and the rise of the Taliban regime, it charts a friendship that spans cultures and continents and follows one man’s journey to confront his past and find redemption. – see more about the cast here

This haunting tale of friendship spans cultures and continents and follows one man’s journey to confront his past and find redemption. Afghanistan is a divided country on the verge…

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Crystals to Help With the Current 2015 Energies

Originally posted on Cauldrons and Cupcakes:

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“Theologians may quarrel, but the mystics of the world speak the same language.”
~ Meister Eckhart

Are you feeling it? This wild, crazy energy we’re sitting in right now. If you’re the slightest bit spiritually or psychically sensitive you’ll know what I mean.

Of course, each of us will be impacted differently, and we may experience a number of sensations or emotions over a given day, or a week. So I’ve put together a little crystal First Aid Kit that you might find useful or comforting right now.

Below you’ll find my crystal recommendations and suggestions for use. I’ve also included suggestions for children and pets, because they are so often sensitive to these shifting energies. You can pop the stone in your pocket, place it by your bed or desk, hold it when you meditate, or even wear it as jewelry. Small tumbled stones will work as well as large…

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The Great Leeds Book Crisis of 1966

Originally posted on The Secret Library:

In October 1966 the Leeds City Engineers determined the structure of the Central Library in the Municipal Buildings, in particular the load-carrying beams, were not strong enough to carry the weight imposed by the Reference stock.  Within weeks 80,000 volumes were moved from all stack rooms and gallery and stacked upon the library basement floors and further basement premises hastily leased in Cookridge Street.

Reference Library Reference Library in 1954 packed with books and students – Leodis

The Library closed for 10 days from October 29th to November 10th while temporary wooden supports were fitted in the basement, ground floor, first floor and second floor.

It would take more than 5 years for the stock to be returned to the library.

Basement 1966 image showing some of the 80,000 books moved to the basement – Leodis

During this time Yorkshire Evening Post reporter Malcolm Barker described one of his visits to…

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4 years ago today…

Originally posted on Hello from me to you:


…..I signed my life away as a newly single person and signed up to rent the first house I viewed with the guide of some friends. I was at the time shutting myself away in an attic of another friends house and just doing my best to be a functioning human.

Today, I still live in the same place. Onto my third job of the year. I don’t have contact with 50% of the people from that time and there’s a good reason for that. It’s also in this 4th year I’ve been able to feel settled in this house and not tried to stay away as much as possible. I do think though my obsession with cleaning has knotched up a level or two but not quite as much as them people on that channel 4 programme. I just have to have things tidy because as much as I…

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